boy screws up
girl goes away
but boy realizes
he loves girl
so boy comes back,
on his knees
girl accepts him,
hesitantly
boy takes it all
to win girl's trust back
girl smiles, takes his hand
to a happy ever after.
oh, i thought it was this simple
boy and girl take turns to a happy ending
but this was never a two way game
and the rules boundless and infinite
unexpectedly, another girl took her turn
a desperate move to win
an innocent life to bribe
and that was it.
i lose my turn.
and if indeed, what you envisioned is real.
you and i growing old together.
maybe we will, but i know that that will not start soon.
and so for now, the waiting continues.
and the certainty unfolds.
silly laughs, warm hugs
but only till the dawn breaks
empty rooms, empty bed
endless waiting is all it takes
not tonight, maybe tomorrow
or the day after if he'll remember
sleepless nights, meaningless toughts
to where does this lead her?
let go of the visciousness
and an end to the perplexity
this is what she longs for
a sound change and certainty
matt asked me: "mama, what's this?
i said: "calculator."
then he went on pressing numbers.
since we were going to the grocery that time, i told him: "matt, let's bring that."
and he asked: "alin? yung alligator?"
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i was playing a guessing game with matt.
i asked him: "matt where did we buy this car again?"
he was clueless.
so i gave him a clue: "sh...?"
still, he was clueless.
so i went on giving him another clue: "shang...?"
and he shouted: "shang-ge!"
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matt said: "mama! i sang crazy little thing called love in school.
for you!
because i love you!"
awwww....
