Single By Faith

I am single

not by fate

but by faith

that God has someone special

waiting for me

No Love Life is Happiness

I have the following equations, which we often hear from people:

with lovelife = happy

not (with lovelife) = end of the world

I thought about this because during OT work in the office, I heard somebody commented:

"Ang hirap talaga ng walang lovelife"

(If you are reading this, I'm sure you know who you are ;)

From the above equations, we can further derive the following:

with lovelife = not (end of the world)

But we all know that the world will end someday.

so the following does not exist:

not (end of the world)

Changing the equations above, we get the following:

not (with lovelife) = end of the world

with lovelife = end of the world

This means,

not (with lovelife) = with lovelife

Replacing the above equation with the first equation above

with lovelife = HAPPY

we derive the equation:

not (with lovelife) = HAPPY

Therefore, I can conclude that

I AM HAPPY! :)

(Of course that can mean either way ;)

Thirsty Soul

Today, I was feeling unusually depressed.

About work, about life.

Felt so alone.

Was not happy about work.

Thought about the possibility of resigning.

But how do I pay my bills?

Thought about my crooked relationship with my son's dad.

I was in the middle of reality and dream.

Depression was making my head ache too much it felt like it was starting to numb. Was I losin' it?

I put on my earphones.

Holding my self as if somebody was hugging me.

I cried to this song:

There's a somebody I'm longin' to see

I hope that he turns out to be

Someone who'll watch over me

I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood

I know I could, always be good

To one who'll watch over me

Although he may not be the man some

Girls think of as handsome

To my heart he carries the key

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed

Follow my lead, oh, how I need

Someone to watch over me

(Secretly I imagined dancing to this song on my wedding, my dad dancing with me first, telling me how happy he is that I have found the right one for me, then my husband smiling down at me and stroking the tears off my face.)

And then I read this quote from Bono:

It’s such an extraordinary thing, music. It is how we speak to God finally – or how we don’t. It’s the language of the spirit. If you believe that we contain within our skin and bones a spirit that might last longer than your time breathing in and out – if there is a spirit, music is the thing that wakes it up. And it certainly woke mine up. And it seems to be how we communicate on another level.

And suddenly I felt better.

I started dancing again to the beat of the songs.

I have reconnected to the true love of my soul.

Music is such food that quenches a thirsty soul.